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On the Record: An Archive of Harm Done by One Individual Under Many Names

Almost seven years have passed since I published an investigative report on SFF writer Benjanun Sriduangkaew, a/k/a/ the rage-blogger Requires Hate, and her years-long track record of engaging in abusive, harassing behavior toward other science fiction, fantasy, and gaming writers and fans online. The report was titled “A Report of Harm Done by One Individual Under Many Names,” and came out on November 6, 2014 on laurajmixon.com, my former author website. That report has since become known as “the Mixon Report.”

The report and the events surrounding it still come up at times in online discourse, and I’ve had people reach out to me, asking for a link to the full version. Unfortunately, the version I published on laurajmixon.com is no longer online, and the most recent web-archived version lacks the critically-important Appendix B, which contained a description of methodology and many evidentiary links. It also lacks the post’s 440 user comments. In the weeks after the report went up, WordPress repeatedly choked on Appendix B’s table sizes, complex formatting, and large number of links. Each time, it rendered the entire report inaccessible, forcing me to repost and reformat the entire report over and over. This was all occurring during the initial period after its release, when many people in the community were trying to access it.

I was never able to resolve the technical issues, so eventually I posted an abridged version instead, with a PDF of the full version available on request. In 2017, laurajmixon.com fell into a web-hosting oubliette—the result of a verification foul-up during a handoff between two hosting services. I lost control of the domain. The official version of the report disappeared down the rabbit hole of bygone bits and botheration.

I think it’s important for people to have access to an official public record of the full report so they can form their own opinions, based on its content. Therefore, I’ve attached below a PDF copy of the report, which includes Appendix B and a link to the web-archived comments. I’ve made a couple of minor edits to the main text and reformatted the tables to improve consistency of terminology and increase readability. Also attached is a separate document containing a brief overview of events leading up to the writing of the report, created recently by some of the report’s contributors.

(Requires Hate Report – Nov, 2014)      (Requires Hate Redux – 2021 team write-up)

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A final note. As I mentioned above, while the report has become known as “The Mixon Report,” it’s not about me. It’s about the community. It’s about trying to help keep people safe in their online spaces, during a tumultuous, deeply divided time, when trust between white and BIPOC fans, writers, and publishers was at a nadir, and white supremacist, racist, homophobic, misogynistic, and transphobic trolling and baiting was on the rise (see GamerGate and the Sad and Rabid Puppies Hugo hijackings, et seq.).

The investigation and preparation of the report was a massive, unpaid effort made by many. I estimate I spent about 300 hours on the effort, all told: including investigating claims; interviewing potential targets; organizing links, screencaps, and other evidence; analyzing data; writing the report; and moderating user comments. But more importantly, an international team of 30 or more SFF writers, fans, and editors gathered around me as I began to collect people’s stories, and made their own substantial contributions to the project.

Without the efforts of those individuals, scattered across the globe—a multi-racial, multi-gender, multi-orientation group; initially most of them strangers to each other, who stepped up to do extensive outreach among their own peers; investigate and validate claims; shape analytical criteria; review and comment on multiple drafts; and wrestle with numerous extremely painful, difficult questions about how best to proceed along the way (not to mention the courage of the dozens more who were willing to share their stories of trauma and distress)—the report could not have been written.

That Hugo the SFF community awarded the report may have my name on it, and it may sit on my shelf, but it has never belonged to me. It belongs to all those who donated their time, their courage, and lived experiences to the report. And it belongs to all those who took a chance on me and rallied around the work we did together, in a difficult and divided time. You know who you are, and I haven’t forgotten you.

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Writing in the Margins, or, Patriarch’s Day, Part 4

(Trigger warning: sexual bias, harassment, assault, misogyny.)

Foreword:

This is the fourth in a series of related posts on sexual abuse and harassment, misogyny, and the science fiction and fantasy community. I think it’s the last, for now.

The first post was here (“A Clockwork Clarion”).

The second was here (“My Childhood Sexual Assault”).

The third was here (“My Childhood Emotional Abuse”).

Let’s get straight to the point.

Did I Really Have to Put You Through All That Icky Abuse Stuff?

Yeah; sorry. I did. You can’t detect the larger pattern, nor understand its importance, until you take a close look at the details.

And before we go on, I’d like you to do three more things, if you are game. In order of priority:

Take the Selective Attention Test.

Watch this short TED Talk.

Take a gender- or race-based Implicit Association Test.

They all have relevance to the broader perspective of these posts.

Continue reading Writing in the Margins, or, Patriarch’s Day, Part 4

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Traveler seeks home; speaker seeks voice; leaper seeks faith

The spousal unit recently shared on Twitter a post I wrote back in 2007 about surveillance, privacy, governmental overreach, and Cory Doctorow’s wonderful book, LITTLE BROTHER. It got me to thinking about who I used to be, and who I am now.

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I have found it hard to speak publicly, since leaving the day job–both in my fiction, and here on the blog. That didn’t used to be the case, and my post about Cory’s book reminded me of this.

Part of it was learned behavior. As a consultant, you can’t afford to be noisy and opinionated. Tact is critical, if you want to keep your job. Now I don’t need tact! Yay! So I’m having to unlearn that habit.

But there’s something deeper going on, as well. To be a good writer, you have to be both entertaining and truthful about important things. Yeah; OK. But I don’t know anymore how to boil my experiences and observations down into good narrative. My thoughts feel disorganized and interdependent and nonlinear, and the twined coils of multiple humiliations and disappointments run through them. It’s hard to expose these to the air.

Continue reading Traveler seeks home; speaker seeks voice; leaper seeks faith

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Howling at the moon


blog pic answeringHere’s one for you to ponder. This morning I answered a call on the house phone. Like many families, we all have our own cell phones, but we’ve kept the landline for emergencies, so mostly what we get there are calls from my family members (who are used to reaching us there from decades of experience), and solicitations.

A male voice on the phone asked for my older (21-year-old) daughter by name. It sounded like a young man, and (while this isn’t a sure thing), his accent was Midwestern white guy. She is currently away at college, and all her friends know this. It’s almost unheard-of for her to ever get calls on the landline, even when she is home. It seemed unlikely he was someone who knew her.

Here is (approximately) how the conversation went.

Continue reading Howling at the moon

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Writers Write

Fiends, Romulans, Mouseketeers: take a potty break, warm up your personal poison, and settle in. This will be a long ride.

Canadian blogger and independent academic Kathryn Allan has written a review of my book Up Against It that is also about her own personal journey as a feminist scholar over the past year. She talks about meeting me at WorldCon last fall and reading my latest book. She reflects on my decision to take a new byline, and how that decision and my work have intertwined with her own transition from the academic life to one as an independent scholar—someone who clearly has suffered, made some important and life-alter(nat)ing decisions 🙂 , who is facing uncertainty now and, I sense, may have had to let go of some cherished dreams, but who is looking forward to her future with anticipation and (at least, so I hope) joy.

For the rest of this post to make much sense, it might help to read her post first. It’s OK; I’ll be here when you get back.

Continue reading Writers Write

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